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‘…and we will line his crib with broken glass and scorpions.’

When you’re expecting a baby ‘they’ come out with a never ending tirade of advice, whether you want it or not. By ‘they’ I mean relatives, friends, neighbours, the checkout woman in Asda, the postwoman, friends of friends, coworkers, everyone on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram and your other half’s best friend’s boss. Basically everyone in the world has their own opinions on how to raise children, even those who have no children. Especially those who have no children.

Sleep is the one sticking point everyone disagrees with. We have a common aim: to achieve sleep, preferably a lot of it and desirably, all in one go. We like to call it ‘Sleeping Through The Night’ and it is achieved by going to sleep in the evening of one day and waking up in the morning of the next. Preferably after 6am. Desirably after 8am but let’s not get too ahead of ourselves. How we get to this restful destination is what causes the world to have an endless supply of opinions and causes the most arguments.

The key fact you should hold in your head is that the little person you gave birth to has never slept alone before. He has been inside you for a good few months, he’s been skipping with the umbilical cord, playing footsie with your ribs, listening to the whoosh and beat of the blood rushing around your body and snuggling down for a nap against your placenta. That was his ‘routine’ and ‘they’ say that routine is key.

So why, on God’s green earth, would you expect that little, tiny person to go solo as soon as he pops out? You give birth to your little bundle and suddenly it’s ‘ok baby, you’re a grown up now, you don’t need your mummy to help you sleep, off you go to crib-land.’ And guess what? Baby doesn’t like that. Baby will cry. Baby will scream. Baby will settle happily and instantly the second you pick him up and cuddle him close. So you try again. And he cries. The second his derrière touches that crib sheet (which you helpfully lined with broken glass, porcupine needles and scorpions, just to make it extra comfy. What do you mean ‘no’? You must have done to encourage such a reaction from your mini-dictator?) he cries.
Frustrating isn’t it? It’s not that hard to solve though. Babies like to be cuddled.

That’s it. That’s the key to sleep. Babies like to be cuddled.

I’m not coming at this from a scientific point of view, I’m coming at this from an ‘I’m really lazy and I like sleep’ point of view. It makes sense when you’re awake enough to really think about it. Someone who has spent his entire life (so far) being held close, living in a space barely bigger than himself; warm, cosy, is comforted constantly. Surely this is a nice way to be? Imagine being tucked up in a nice warm sleeping bag; your own little cocoon of comfort.

Now imagine someone takes it away from you and leaves you alone in a dark room all by yourself with nothing and no one to comfort you. There might be a little stuffed elephant clutching a scrap of silky material. He’s masquerading as a ‘comforter’ but his eyes are beady and that material he holds is too slippery. There might be a night light of some description which is meant to cast a comforting glow but does little more than create unearthly shadows and that white noise app, or Ewan the Nightmare Inducer Dream Sheep isn’t replicating mummy’s heart beat, it’s making a beating sound with none of the warmth that goes with it. Like someone telling you the smell of chocolate will satisfy you just as much as tucking into a massive bar of Dairy Milk. It won’t.

I’m not offering you a quick fix solution, I’m not telling you that there is a magic trick to make babies sleep for hours on end, what I’m telling you is that what you are experiencing is normal. Babies aren’t supposed to sleep through the night, it’s a survival instinct. It’s their way of making sure they stay alive. They only have tiny tummies that fill and empty very rapidly so yes, they do need feeding often. They need to feel safe and secure and loved so yes, they wake for cuddles. They don’t like to feel wet or unclean so yep, they wake for a nappy change. They have all of these needs during the day AND at night. It’s kind of a 24/7 deal you sign up to when you decide to have a baby.

When Little Monkey was a baby I had all kinds of advice offered to me on how to solve the problem of him sleeping. Funnily enough I hadn’t realised he had a problem but he must do if so many people thought that ten hours straight wasn’t good enough. He went to bed at 7 after cuddles and a story and milk and he was snuggled to sleep. This was Problem Number One. He then slept until 5am when he would wake up for the day. This was Problem Number Two. He was tired and ready for his nap at about 9am. This was Problem Number Three.

What?! When did my baby develop all these problems? What had we done wrong? ‘They’ said that cuddling him to sleep was wrong. ‘He will never learn to self settle, you’ll be cuddling to sleep forever.’ I’ll be honest, I didn’t and still don’t think that it was a bad thing. It was my favourite time of the day; those nights when he had his milk and lay sleepily in my arms, looking up at me with his big blue eyes, drifting off to sleep. It was the one time of day when he didn’t want to chatter, he didn’t want to play, he was just content to be in my arms. He fell asleep safe and secure and didn’t stir when placed in his cot. But no, this was a bad thing. Babies should go to sleep on their own, they need to be independent and the way to do it was to let him cry. As a first time mum I had very little confidence in my own abilities and thoughts on how babies should be raised, what did I know? So began the Super Nanny Nights (I refer you to my earlier point of people with no children of their own having the most opinions on how they should be raised-this woman has made a living out of telling people how to raise kids when she’s no bloody idea what it’s like to raise one herself.) I put him in his cot after his milk, a gave him a kiss and a cuddle and lay him down and then left the room. And he cried. And I went back in. ‘Don’t speak to him, just lie him back down and leave.’ So I did. And he cried. And I cried and then I scooped him up and we cuddled to sleep. The next night we tried again. And the same thing happened. Night three I was up and down those stairs like a Yoyo until I thought ‘Sod this.’ An hour of up down up down up down or twenty minutes of cuddling? It felt wrong, it went against all my instincts so we cuddled. And guess what? Now that Little Monkey is three he doesn’t want cuddles to sleep anymore. I couldn’t tell you when it progressed from cuddles to just a kiss and a hug and him dozing off with his teddies but he’s happy.

Problem Number Two turned out to be just phase. We tried putting him to bed later but that was an holy disaster and eventually he just started sleeping a bit later.

Problem Number Three was apparently an inconvenience. How on earth was I expected to ‘get anything done’ when he was asleep by 9am? How could we go anywhere when he was ready for his nap? Well, babies have this amazing ability to sleep wherever they like. Especially in places like prams or slings or car seats. So he did.

Now that Little Panda is here this sleeping thing is a ‘problem’ again. (for everyone else, I might add, not me.) Firstly he doesn’t go to bed at 7pm. Shock horror. No he doesn’t, because that’s not his bed time. He decides his bed time when his tummy is full enough. If he’s not full he won’t sleep, a bit like me on Christmas Day. If I haven’t eaten my own body weight in Toblerone, turkey and After Eights there’s no chance of a Christmas nap.

Our second problem is bed-sharing. All the advice and safe sleeping guidelines say that babies should share a room with their mothers for the first six months. This helps them to stay alive. Yes, it really does. Babies have trouble remembering to breathe; when they get into a nice, deep sleep they sometimes forget to do it but the bond which was created when they were living Uterus Land doesn’t end when the umbilical cord is cut and it enables them to regulate their breathing with mum’s. Mum will also tuck blankets in, take them off, stroke baby’s face; all these little things which help to promote bonding and stop babies from slipping away in their sleep. The NHS doesn’t actively promote bed-sharing because of the risks (formula feeding, mothers and fathers who drink, smoke or take medication and the risks of over heating) but done safely it saves lives. And it’s the ultimate lazy girls’ way to get some sleep.

Little Panda is very happy to sleep in his crib for a couple of hours (among the broken glass and scorpions) but once his tummy starts to rumble he wants milkies. Unfortunately this often coincides with the time of night when I want sleepies. So we compromise. I will obligingly whip a boob out for him to help himself and I will carry on sleeping. But something magical happens in this time. Rather than sleeping like a starfish with a hangover, I transform into a prawn; curling myself around his little shape with one arm over his head – keeping him from wriggling towards my pillows – and the other over him to stop him rolling. And here we stay. He rolls into me when he wants milk and rolls away when he’s done and we sleep ever so peacefully all night.

Yes, you read that right. We. Sleep. All. Night.

We stir occasionally to adjust our position but that’s it. Come 8am we’re awake; refreshed and ready to face the world. We even nap like that when I’m lucky enough and the gods are on my side for both kids to be tired at the same time.

This is not a problem for me. Other people consider it a problem (When does it stop? When will he go into his own bed? How will you get him out? You’ll be sleeping with him until he leaves home! And other such rubbish.) and to them I say simply this:

Mind your own business.

It’s not a problem for me so why the hell are you trying to make it your problem? Do YOU sleep alone? No? Sleep with someone else, do you? LIKE it, do you? ENJOY having someone to cuddle? Funny that, so does Little Panda.

Now, I’m not suggesting that everyone should start bed-sharing immediately but what I am saying is this: if you don’t think your little cub has a sleep problem, stop listening to people who tell you otherwise. If you’re getting lots of sleep, or even if you’re not, and you’re HAPPY with your arrangement, tell ‘they’ to buzz off and bother someone else. My style of parenting raises eyebrows from some people (my brother does refer to me as a hippy quite often) but my general rule of thumb is that if Super Nanny thinks it’s a good idea, I’m doing the exact opposite. Naughty step? No thank you, not for me. Controlled crying? Torture by any other name. Children are not the mini-dictators she would have us believe, they don’t have the capacity to plot and plan to manipulate their parents from day one, they need love and cuddles and warmth and food and to be clean. It’s not a lot to ask.

So if breastfeeding, bed-sharing and gentle parenting makes me a hippy; then tie-dye me up and get me to WoodStock.

Peace and love.

for info on safe bed-sharing click here.

for a blog from another, equally as hippy-ish as me, read A Guide To Getting Life Wrong

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43 thoughts on “‘…and we will line his crib with broken glass and scorpions.’

  1. love it.This is how we lived. It is a wonderfully symbiotic way of nurturing.Thanks for sharing.I am amazed at how people get hung up on doing things in ways that go against natural needs and rhythms.I am sure you have lovely, secure happy children as a result.Why burden precious babyhood with so many silly expectations. Yep I did the prawn sleep too.Perfect.

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  2. I loved reading this, I’m on baby no 3 after s 6yr gap and my god the way “things” change. I mean tummy time!!! Already my baby is 3 wks old!! Can’t do this ,can’t do that ,don’t put them here or there,u must’nt do that!!! Bloody hell my 10 ur old is beautifully harmonious boy and he had all of the above in your story and so did my 6 yr old and im sticking to it wiv my daughter who’s 3wks..and yes if this means being classed as a hippy then so be it..

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  3. “The NHS doesn’t actively promote bed-sharing because of the risks (formula feeding, mothers and fathers who drink, smoke or take medication and the risks of over heating)”
    Everything from “mothers and fathers who drink” I get, but please can you elaborate on the risks of bed-sharing with a formula-fed baby?

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    1. Here’s a site with some of the research: https://www.isisonline.org.uk/hcp/where_babies_sleep/parents_bed/how_parents_bedshare/bedsharing_and_nonbreastfeeders/ Basically, breastfeeding moms are hormonally linked to their babies in a way that keeps them aware of the baby even while sleeping. Formula-feeding moms don’t have that link and are less atuned to the bay while sleeping.

      I saw a segment on tv once discussing a series of babies who died while sleeping along with an adult and there was a quiz asking what factor was true in all cases–drug/alcohol impairment of adult, lots of pillows and blankets, sleeping on a couch or chair, and formula-fed infant–I guessed the couch/chair, but the answer was formula. The newscasters asked the expert guest they had what he thought, and he instantly said, formula. I’d say if a formula-feeding mom wants to bedshare, do so with a sidecar arrangement so baby has a separate surface.

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  4. Yep. You talk much sense. My youngest is 11 weeks old, and I sleep like you say, except we get up at 6.30-7 when toddler gets up. However I do have envy that your toddler naps. Mine will only nap in car, so no daytime naps for me.

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  5. Aw this just made me have a cry! I’m 7 months pregnant and almost don’t want baby to come out it’s so comforting having him in there so I can imagine how he will feel being pushed out and all cold instead of snugly 24/7!

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  6. Thank you for this post. You made me laugh several times. I love your descriptions and humour to make the points you made.

    We also had to go through a journey of learning to trust my own instincts and discernment in who to listen to and we happily sleep all night long in the same manner. It was a revelation to stop trying to make things other than they are with my first and I felt so much more refreshed on less sleep when that happened when I wasn’t comparing that to what I thought should be happening nor trying to make him sleep longer.

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  7. Well said! My sentiments exactly, and I do all of the very same. My babies are happy as can be and I can count on one hand the amount of times my sleep routine was disturbed. My near-three-year-old puts herself to bed and naps and is very well-adjusted.

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  8. Bravo! I am 71 years old and have always felt that you cannot spoil a baby. You can only meet their needs. Babies have been sleeping with Mommys since the dawn of mankind. Don’t believe in “controlled crying”. Although, I might consent to it IF the supernanny consents to me waterboarding her for a few hours, nonstop. Most mothers know how to deal with their child. It’s all the unnecessary “advice” that makes them question themselves.

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  9. This made me smile. P and I have been bed-sharing since her arrival (two weeks early). She’s now just over 3 months, and still in bed with me. As a GP I am well aware of the ‘risks’ of bed-sharing, but I weighed those risks against the risks of me being over-tired and grumpy and decided to stick with keeping her in bed with me. I have never been someone who sleeps on my back, but in the early days when the only place P would sleep was on my chest, I was astonished to find I could have a comfortable and refreshing sleep lying on my back and not changing position.
    Selfishly, I love these cuddles. They’re not going to last forever, so I’m enjoying them while I can and will tackle getting her into a bed of her own once she’s a little older and more independent.

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  10. I didn’t have a baby book to follow (thank goodness) and us new mothers didn’t have to worry overmuch about the latest “research” findings, when I had my children in 1971 and 1972. This was great as it meant we didn’t have to go through the cacophanous list of do’s and don’ts and worry endlessly about whether we were doing right or wrong. Mothers today are made to feel really guilty if they don’t follow the “current guidelines”. They take them to be the Holy Bible of parenting…….. they are not ……….. they are exactly what the word implies – a guide !! Guides are meant to be a starting point that you can alter to suit your own circumstances. It was lovely to hear some straight talking at last !

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  11. Well said and I could not agree more! We’ve just stopped bed sharing with offspring number 4, only to find that offspring number 3 has started to migrate back to our bed in the wee hours. But I’ve always been an advocate of the ‘uncontrolled cuddling method’ and remain fairly confident that they won’t be bed sharing in their teens, so I’ll just enjoy! 😉

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  12. I have an almost 2 and a half year old that I still nurse every night – sometimes right to sleep and sometimes he gets up and walks to his toddler bed and then falls asleep on his own. Sometime he sleeps until after six and other nights he gets up at three am and walks into our room, climbs into bed and falls asleep. Once in a while he kicks me in the face while sleeping but mostly he just plays with my hair and drifts off to sleep. I always thought and hoped he would gradually get “better” at sleep on his own and tried to ignore the pressure to sleep train or force it on him. And it worked! Even though nearly everyone questioned it and gave pressure to not have a toddler who nursed to sleep or came into our bed at night.

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  13. I love this so much. I heard it all with my first child. But at the same time “they” marvel over the fact that both my children started sleeping through the night in the first month. Why? Because of this co-sleeping you find so unhealthy, over protective, and coddling. My oldest is in his own room and bed as I type. He’s asleep soundly. The baby is lying next to me in bed, sleeping soundly. Obviously neither of my children are showing signs of whatever it was “they” told me they would suffer from. And if it weren’t for my anxiety induced insomnia, I’d be getting much needed sleep.

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  14. I considered co sleeping. I even managed it on several occasions. But it seemed to be linked to horrific nightmares. The more I co slept, the more they happened. I’d throw myself out of bed shouting to my partner, calling out my little boys name, having just dreamed he was in bed with us and we had smothered him, crushed him, he’d over heated. I had dreams that he drowned or fell out of bed. I found myself at the door to our room on several occasions, feeling in the dark, not realising where I was until I smashed my arm against the door. Once I launched out of bed and literally ran to his cot, not quite knowing where I was. I ran straight into his cot and ended up on the floor, which was when I realises what had happened.

    So, we compromised. The nightmares went on for months but they gradually went away. My little man shared a room with us for seven months.

    As much as I love the idea of co sleeping and I’d have loved to do it consistently, I don’t think I trusted myself enough no to hurt him. Having him next to me, first in his bassinet and then his cot, is what worked for us.

    To each their own.

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  15. Please can I give a print out of this to my kg hypnobirthing antenatal classes? Obviously with the link to your blog. (They are more likely to read it first in hard copy in their handout folders.) This is just how I learned to be with my two – and how my daughter is bringing hers up, bless her. There is so much crap advice out there.

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  16. 100% you are right. moms should know that the newborn babies need love and feed to grow healthy. they cant feel love until feel save, they cant feel save until you provide for them the same atmosphere they used to be in.mom smelling, touching,and her sound keep them feel save and healthy grow,now until they grow enough to accept there new atmosphere all other problems will fix by it self. so have fun with your angle these little few weeks, its a memory that never come back

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  17. So lovely to read your post (even though it made me laugh AND tear up!)… as a first time Mum with a 10 month old I have fretted and spent many days and nights feeling anxious and worried about how I am raising my bubba. He is happy, he is content and he is developing as expected, despite all I read about him not having long naps (he was a cat napper for a while) and not sleeping for long enough stints and how this would hinder his development. He is doing just fine, but at times I have not been and this is due to the abundance of information out there and of course everyones ‘helpful’ advice. He still wakes every 1-2 hours at night, if I am lucky he might go 3-4 hours, but this is much less often. I co-sleep and feed him to sleep, when he first goes to sleep and all night long when he wakes.. and I wish I could just accept that this is how it is for now, with my hubby in another room (mostly) and stop worrying that what I am doing will make it hard for him to sleep alone. He is still so tiny and I love having him so near – so will remember your wise words to anyone that judges to mind their own business. Failing that I will just tell them he is a ‘good baby’, sleeps all night is his cot bed and I put him down awake 😉

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  18. Great blog post! When I was pregnant with our first I mentioned to my husband about buying a cot. ‘What do we need a cot for?’ he replied. ‘Won’t they be sleeping in our bed?’ It was me who was anti-bedsharing, at first. Forward to our first night in hospital when she was born. Every time I laid her in that little goldfish bowl, she cried. She clearly loved being with me and I discovered at that moment that I had no willpower whatsoever when it came to my children and crying. We co-slept from then and didn’t look back. When my husband worked shifts, sometimes the only time he spent with our eldest was curled up next to her in bed.
    Those baby years are so fleeting and now we’re so glad we made the most of spending every second near our babies that we could. Three children later, having followed our instincts, I can safely say we haven’t made any rods for our own backs. We have practised our own version of gradually and gently getting them to sleep in their own beds and then their own rooms when we felt the time was right. Our two eldest (8 and 5) share a room and sleep all night in their own beds, unless they have a bad dream, in which case they are welcome to come in our bed for cuddles and reassurance. Our youngest is three. He goes to sleep on his own, quite happily in his own bed in his own room and wakes some time in the night to come in with us.
    It won’t last forever. One day, they’ll have all left home..

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  19. I enjoy reading blogs about different parenting styles from my own and this was nicely written to help me understand why some moms choose to co-sleep. My children slept in cribs from birth – in the first six months they often slept next to me for a couple hours, usually in the early morning hours, but never the entire night. I think it is a very personal decision. Everyone sleeping in their own beds feels more natural to me. Sleeping with children obviously feels very natural to others. I appreciate when people don’t judge me for raising my children to be very independently natured, its on the opposite side of the breast-feeding/co-sleeping/baby-wearing spectrum which gets just as many eye-brow raises. All in all… as long as we love them and show our love, I think we’re doing all right.

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  20. Love it. We cosleep at six months and I constantly find myself saying “and we should start getting him to sleep in his cot” and then my husband looks at me and says “but why? We like having him in the bed”. He is more sensible than me. Baby sleeps, I sleep, we’re all happy.

    And you’re right – generally when we are old enough to choose, most people choose to share a bed with another person. So why make the littlest, most vulnerable person sleep alone? As long as it works for everyone involved, it works.

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  21. THANK YOU for this post! Reading this as a first time mum to a newborn is such a confidence boost. My baby started off by ALWAYS wanting to sleep in my arms or next to me (day and night). I was happily stuck in the bedroom with him most of the time. But as the weeks went by, he was pleased with napping in my bed alone during the day. Now at 7 weeks, he is satisfied with falling asleep in my arms and continuing sleeping throughout the night in his cot, placed next to me. It works perfect! I think babies needs time to get comfortable and feel safe, one can’t just “force” them to “get used to it”. It’s gradual process mixed with lots of love and cuddles 🙂 ALSO, I can’t see a lovlier way to spend my maternity leave than in my mother-baby-bubble :)!

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  22. Very touching story. With our second child we are finding that our little one loves cuddles and sleeping with mum. Sadly this also means feeding nearly every hour. It’s completely unsustainable for our family. So we’ve given our little one the reassurance she needed and now she’s sleeping in her crib better, and it’s breeding more content sleep. All articles about parenting are veiled advice. We all do what we do to cope with an incredibly emotional time, and this invariably means different things to different people

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  23. I agree. Pleased to see my parenting skills align with yours! Pleased to be known as a hippy too!! Hehe! Xxx thanks Anglea Phillips and Emma Nickels as I followed my cousins in their parenting skills xxx

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  24. Really adored this, my munchkin still sleeps with me most nights and she is 4 and it is the only way we both sleep peacefully, it saves me from worrying about her and she feels secure and calm. I have also had every second person mention how bad it is how it will affect her badly blah blah blah. all it has done is strengthen our bond and for damn sure give me a couple of straight hours sleep that I was dying for. Also a first time mom. She is my one and only and I have no regrets about sleeping with her, on the contrary I dread the day the lil munchkin doesn’t want to cuddle anymore. well written, thank you.

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  25. Very True! Trying to follow guidelines about putting my baby into a cot/moses basket on her own made me poorly (anyone had a silent migraine before – very scary) and looking back I think contributed to me having some PND. At 8 weeks after trying to survive on no more than 2 hours sleep a night in 5 minute bursts we brought our little one into our bed (on the advice of my GP who also said ‘don’t tell your health visitor’) where she slept for 4 hours that first night! She’s still here cuddling with her mum at night aged 6 months and she’s a brilliant sleeper and never, ever cries at night because I wake up when she stirs so catch her way before it’s escalated to crying. She won’t be sleeping like this forever so I’m enjoying it while she’s still my little baby because everyday she moves further away from being that!

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